Slipping Away

It's been a rough couple of weeks and I'm unsure as to why exactly... Right now, most things are absolutely perfect with a little bit of rough and tough in between, as to be expected. I started a new job which I do like very much. While I loved my previous job, this one is a lot less stressful which helps while I am in school. I am still attending the University of Alaska Fairbanks working towards my Business Degree, so far, I have no regrets. Though I would love to just sign a form promising that if I do not take accounting, I will hire an accountant. ;-)

I've learned a lot about myself, but yet I have so far to go.

I am one who looks for the answer in EVERYTHING as well as the shortcuts to get to those answers. I am always in a hurry, I've got to slow down.

My head runs, literally, a million miles an hour. I look way to deep into some things, and it makes me crazy. I bottle up emotions, I bottle up questions... Until finally they explode over something so little that it doesn't make sense as to why I am being so emotional at that very given moment...

Today, I logged onto Myspace for the first time in years... I've kept it all along..becuase it's a lot of what I have left of my dad. but it too, is slipping away.. His profile is no longer a true profile and I worry that soon, it will be gone.

I miss his voice, I miss his hugs.. I miss calling to complain about everything to him... I miss calling for advice on my boy life... I miss my Dad. I don't know that this will ever stop...

Overall, I am happy.

I have my family back and I am looking constantly to the future (but not too far, cause I find that makes me crazy too) and a lot less to the past.

I am learning lessons in life that need to be learned...